Resilience

Posted to raise awareness on World Suicide Prevention Day, September 10, 2017.

 

Today I realized

That I see people

In their pain

I see it in their eyes

Feel it in their bodies

Hear it in their silences

 

What do I do with that?

How do I feel for them?

And for me?

Who can lift all that for a lifetime?

And should I? And will I?

 

I know I’m resilient

But I’m also human

I know I’m strong

But how much can I take?

I know I’m powerful

But how much can I carry?

I know I’m made to endure

But how long can I survive?

I know I’m persevering

But how long until I break?

 

Humanity walks the line of paradigm

As strong as a hungry lion

And powerful as a tired eagle

Our hearts long for connection

Yet we fear being known

We want love

But we’re afraid of honesty

Where can we go from ourselves

When we both contradict and exceed

Our very beings of extraordinary minimalness

 

I am resilient

And that is how I face the day

Sometimes I feel it

Sometimes I know it

Sometimes I live it

Sometimes I reach for it

I am still full of resilience

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God of Humanity

God of our humanity

Fill these clay pots with divine Spirit

Permeate our weak bodies with supernatural

 

God of our humanness

Expand our limited dust with your sacred presence

Build up our finite with your vast, surpassing truth

 

God of our created beings

Surround us in pure, encompassing love and grace

Soothe our need and longings with your all-knowing emotion

 

God of our human hearts

Create our lives of smallness to discover your inventive will

Regard our lack and reach to us with perfect embrace

 

God of understanding us

Find calm for us when we have fear and confusion

Hold us in thriving rest and peace

 

God of incomplete people

Be our wholeness, abundance and arrival

Enable our experience of your absolute and total affection for us

 

God of the little and insignificant

Tell us we are wanted, beloved, cherished

Instill to us our importance, irreplaceability and beauty

 

God of the dying flesh

Preach in us our eternity with purposeful passion

Sustain our fighting breath to matter while we are still here

Advocate

You can’t get out of your skin

So be kind to your body

And be gentle with your mind

Cry for yourself as crying over a loved one

Shed tears for you because no one else will

So much to feel but so little time

Be patient with your very full heart

It will get better inside

You’ll find a way forward

I’m convinced you are a superhero

I’m sure you’re a winning fighter

In some small way, you win everyday

In every step you take I see bravery

You’re inspiring me, one breath at a time

Your impact is mighty and big

You may not see yourself, you can’t

But trust yourself, believe your faith

Power moves the mountains in you

You’re not going to stop surviving

You’re going to still be thriving

You’re being a difference by staying true

Yourself is a treasure to the earth

Stop the breaking and start the mending

Stop the shutting up and start loving

Be nice

You’ll be better for it

And your life will ring out the song

Your song

It’s the melody that we’ve been waiting for

We want to hear you

Please sing your voice

Your beautiful heart is

Our friend

Not your foe

Welcome home

Burning Blue

Heart with a fire

You warm those who are alone and scared

You burn those who criticize and judge

You welcome to the hearth those who are hungry

You question those who are self-righteous and ignorant

Your flames are light to the ones in shadow and fear

Your sparks surprise those in lukewarm complacency

The fire is a gift, a treasure, your calling

But carrying a fire in your heart comes with a cost

I see your scars and they are beautiful

Because whatever fought you didn’t take you

I see your loneliness and it’s not your fault

You are not empty, weak or helpless

I see the burdens you carry alone and I want rest for you

You can’t live with a fire inside and not feel it

Your fire grows weary and burns itself out

But even coals have life in them, they just need stirring

Open up to receive well, in order to give well

No fire lasts forever without flaming

Learn to receive the gifts of oxygen and wood for warmth

You will find a way to live

Your heart will stay here

Even with a blue flame fire

Rise

Pure love, let me see you, let me feel you here with me.

Extravagant love, fill the caverns inside me, soothe my often chased, often chasing mind.

Expansive love, show up in my world like a warm light, surround my heart like a soft blanket.

Beautiful love, keep my soul in peaceful rest and be a lullaby for my tired and restless body.

Bright and effervescent love, here I am, wanting to be safe in you. Keep me still so I may learn to live completely and totally loved.

Inclusive, gracious love, embrace me in your fullness so I may know I am wholly accepted.

Deep and intense love, fill me with assurance of my belovedness and instill me with confidence of my never-changing deliverance.

Caring and gentle love, keep me within your wings so that I know I am continually being healed and always have your healing.

Strong, powerful love, stay with me in the dark places of fear and loss and the shadows of confusion. Be my compass out of dark valleys.

Comforting and calming love, be even closer when my heart oozes pain and I’m scattered by hurt and overwhelm.

Compassionate, empathetic love, be my breath when my lungs are battered and broken with exhausting suffering.

Live-giving Love, be the blood in my heart and veins to enliven me here as a beacon of Yourself.

Spent

You made me to dance, to fly, to sing

You made me to laugh and cry and scream

You made me to sigh, sleep, work

You made me to play, grow and search

Why do I spend my time trying to lift the weight I was never meant to carry?

Why do I use my energy trying to fix all the “problems” You never told me?

Why do I try to understand that which takes me from Your present peace?

Why do I keep shrinking smaller so as to not exist in my proper space?

My life is meant to be at rest in Someone in love with me

Where I am home

Don’t Abandon

Burning blue eyes

You see through to people’s hearts

You perceive souls with your own

You feel deeply while you see

Their pain, fear and ignorance

You sense the arrogance, confusion and rejection

And you still fall under the weight of the world

On your shoulders as if it’s yours to carry and heal

When your own feelings are too much to bear alone

 

You are powerful and strong

You have so much courage and bravery

But you have spent so much of it

Living and surviving, keeping your life full

And your heart beating, lungs heaving

You are running yourself ragged

When there are none to boost you up

None to fill your wings with air

When you suffocate from burdens

 

Your power is shining through

When you are empty and yet still breathing

You have such strength to carry on

When you feel small and weak

You have such courage to walk

When you feel you have none to walk with

You are brave, so brave

When you stand again after being beaten down

And while you feel alone overwhelming you

I am here

I see you

You cannot be forgotten