Now that it’s mid-February, I was thinking and I realized that the month of February has often been a month of change for me. Especially during the past five years, the month of February has been an incredible time of personal growth, decisions and realizations. Here’s some of what God has done in my life.
In February 2012, I traveled by myself to four different music schools around the country to audition for graduate school programs.
In February 2013, I made the decision to start “talk” therapy with a licensed marriage and family therapist because of issues of depression and anxiety.
In February 2014, I made the decision to discontinue “talk” therapy and anti-depressant medication.
In February 2015, I made the decision to start “talk” therapy again and change churches.
In February 2016, I made decision to step down from the church music team to focus on different areas of ministry, such as writing and other areas of leadership.
In February 2017, after twenty-one years of music lessons, practice, tendinitis and two performance degrees on my instrument, I was hired to record for my first movie soundtrack. This is a milestone in my profession. I am humbled and blessed to have come this far. It is only by the grace of God that I have gotten to this place professionally and can continue.
To continue, in this month this year, I am more authentically myself then I have ever been. I am striving to be more honest and therefore more available for relationships. I am determined to be more transparent and more able to invest in others’ lives. I’m learning to listen to God more. I’m getting involved in my church in more ways than ever before in ways that I’m truly passionate about. I’m finding acceptance and meaning in the God who made me as He did in the ways He designed me to be. Without the incredibly amazing work God has done throughout my life and especially during the past five years, I would be nowhere near the complete person I am today, living a full and abundant life in Christ. Without God showing me His infinite and expansive love, I would not be at the place of wholeness, healing and health I am, by His grace. And it is all for His glory.
Who knows what this month and year will hold for me? Who knows what God has in store for me during the next five years?