The past series has been a written depiction of my journey through depression as a Christian. Although it’s merely a manifestation of the depression that I have been through, I think there may be some commonalities between me and others with depression. I want to communicate my experience to others and this is just one of the many ways I have been endeavoring to do so. After all, it’s through the darkness that we see light the most clearly. Who knows what darkness can be avoided if we speak up to warn others and steer them towards the great Healer?
I would not trade this trial for anything. I have come to see that I was saved by Jesus to have a relationship with God, who is a Person. And I have come to live in that relationship by faith in Him. I was not meant to be in bondage to a religion of rules. I am under God’s grace and forgiveness and I now live like it. I believe that this trial has enabled me to learn all these things and so much more. My spiritual blindness and confusion, (although I was a Christian during depression,) would not have been shown to me if it were not for this trial. And I would not have sought the light if I had not been in the dark for so long. While I was angry at God for a time for putting me through this, now I am grateful to Him for allowing this trial or creating it, if that is what He did. I would have it no other way.
I am alive today because God saved my life, literally, several times. He has expanded my view of Him. He has changed my perception of Him. And He has enabled me to see that my relationship with Him is one of real love and acceptance. I walk by faith and not by works. I am grateful to be alive today because of His faithful power at work in my life. He has used many people along the way to stand by me. I am so thankful for the ones who have seen me, both then, and now. I am at peaceful rest in God, who has delivered me and will continue to deliver me, no matter what. He is a miracle worker. I am His miracle.