Some thoughts

Eleven is my favorite number. Has been for a long time. I don’t know why, I just like it. So since this is my 11th blog post, it’s somewhat of a landmark for me. I thought I’d take the opportunity to muse a little about this “project” which is my blog.
When I first started this blog, I had only one post in mind. I didn’t have a plan except that I made a goal for myself – to write for my blog once a week. I’ve kept my goal so far but sometimes I’m at a loss for words about what to post. In fact, a lot of times I don’t know what to say. But here are some things I’ve learned.
Usually I don’t like sharing things about me. It’s often tough for me to be open and honest about myself. But this blog has been stretching me and helping me to grow in that area. The Bible talks a lot about how Christians should fellowship with one another and there are many ways to do that. This blog is one way that I am trying to become better that.
Also, I want to encourage others. Many times I don’t know who reads my blogs or what they think about what I say but most of all, I hope what I say is true and that it is encouraging. I have found that in many ways I seek to encourage others in the same places that I desire encouragement. This blog has challenged me to preach truth to myself as I endeavor to preach it to others.
As people, we desire to communicate. We want to know and be known. I have realized that communication is important but it takes a lot of practice. In this blog, I am trying to communicate. But sometimes I almost don’t know why I stick to my goal. After all, the blog is not solely for me, otherwise it wouldn’t be public. And yet it’s not totally for others either because I’m not catering to readers’ requests. So I really don’t even know what it’s about. What do I call what I write? Do I really need to define it? I guess I’ll just leave it undefined since I’m not sure I understand. Maybe this post has helped to explain it.

If you’re out there…

For those who have bleeding hearts, please don’t give up. Just keep holding on. Don’t let the darkness overwhelm you. Please don’t let the pain overcome you. There is peace for you. You don’t have to be afraid. You are safe. Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth and the life, no one comes to the Father except through me.” The Bible also says, “whoever believes in Him will not perish but have everlasting life.” You don’t have to hurt. You don’t have to be alone. There is a way to live.

What if?

What if I never was afraid of what people thought of me? What if I was never worried about the future? What if I was never ashamed of the way I was made? What if I never doubted God’s Word? What if I never said “I should’ve” or “I could’ve?” What if I never feared people? What if I was never anxious about what I was supposed to do? What if I never wasted my time regretting things I can’t take back? What if I never spent my energy wishing I did things differently? What if? Life would be different.

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” 2nd Timothy 1:7 NKJV

I renounce you fear.  I renounce you and will stop being afraid.

I renounce the fear that I will never find my place in the world, that I will never belong, and that I will always feel like an outsider.  I renounce the fear that I will always be bored, that I will never want to do anything, and that I will never have direction.  I renounce the fear that I will never live my dreams, that I will never get to do what I want to, and that I will never find purpose in what I do.  I renounce the fear that I will never be liked by people, that people will never want to be with me, and that I will never be wanted.  I renounce the fear that I will never have the friendships I hope for, that I will never be married, and that I will never have kids.  I renounce the fear that I am nothing, that I will never amount to anything, and that I will never be at peace.

I renounce fear because I do not need to live in it.  God conquers it all.